Friday, June 3, 2011

Pop Music... and all it's glory.

I've said it before and I'll say it again. Hello, my name is Ashley, and yes I am a pop music junkie - this is where you chime in a say hello back :)

Rule #23, be honest about your likes and dislikes.

I think in the past I haven't always been honest about the things I like or dislike because I was afraid of seeming lame, uneducated, unaware or even just plain boring. But as time quickly races past, as it always seems to do, I realize how important it is to be honest about the things that make you happy, or not so happy. Tonight as I put in my headphones, super excited to listen to the three new songs I recently downloaded while I did the dishes, it dawned on me how much I enjoy music. My plan, well it was to dance the night away while I did those dishes. And I did.

Since dishes are one of my favorite things to do, yes you may be wondering why ashley? why? It is simple, it is the BEST stress reliever ever, you are accomplishing something and at the VERY same time being so peaceful, not talking, and not being available to anyone. But more often than not, when I am doing my dishes is when I become the most aware of my thoughts, emotions, and actions. It is usually there at the sink that I evaluate my behavior and ruthlessly dissect it.

As I stood there grooving, and yes I just wrote grooving, I thought how great it was that I live alone so that I could do things like this. Wait. I am happy I live alone so that I can be myself??? Something is wrong with that thinking. Yes on one hand, living alone is nice because who knows, I might not get this precious me and the dishes time if I didn't live alone, but on the other hand it revealed something much deeper. The truth of the matter, it showed me that somewhere deep in my heart of hearts, I, am not completely okay with who I am. I need to render that.

So here is to rule #23, Pop music makes me happy. I love to dance around in my kitchen while doing my dishes, enjoying the latest pop song.

Oh and as a complete side note, I met a new friend, he's great, and incase he finds my blog, like he said he would :/ (yikes), I can't wait for our picnic. Thats also going to be great.