Saturday, May 1, 2010

Rule #5 Never Leave a Fellow Wedding Crasher Behind.

I was trying SO hard to make another post in April, (slight laughter) I missed it by 53 measly minutes. So what life lessons have I learned in the past month? well it's kind of hard to count but I guess I will start somewhere #100, if you have a car you are not excited about, make up something about it to be excited about. That way you enjoy your journey where ever you go- Like recently I got a new car - right you were think SWEET! well new to me. not new at all really. In frank actuality, its kinda gross inside, it blinds people when in the sun from its amazing gold color and it well in all of that, its just not a me car. SO, I named it- The Gold Bullet, has a nice ring to it huh? well just as the name is very fitting, also is the nicely placed (already there) bumper sticker on the back that says in very large print WATCH OUT, so here I am driving around in a gold bullet telling people to watch out. Best thing about it, thats pretty much the opposite of me. So needless to say, I now at least can laugh on each excursion!

Rule # 500 - Don't stay up all night, and try to work then next day- I wasn't doing anything wrong, or bad or even irresponsible, but guess what? today was incredibly hard to function. I found myself crying in a coffee shop, for a couple of different reasons (those are beside the point) but an old man wouldn't stop watching me- YIKES! I couldn't order my dinner, and I even almost fell asleep during a sharks play off game!

Rule #3 - Always deal with your issues in life sooner than later- learned that one early on, and can I just say I am still trying to work that one out!

Rule #38 - Don't leave your laundry in the dryer, its inconsiderate to others- of course if you live alone, enjoy all that extra laundry time and leave it in for days- just because you can.

Rule #56- Don't stalk people on Facebook, it never leads to anything good. If anything it usually leads to something bad.

Rule #71- When a friend calls crying, just listen, I know out of your deep love for your friends you want to "fix" things (which you will NEVR be able to do, so stop trying), they don't need a game plan, sometime they don't even need reality or reason, or truth...honestly they just want you to listen. I can't say I didn't blow this one this week. But hey thats why its #71, I haven't quite gotten there.

well thats all the lessons for tonight/this very early morning!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

What would it be like!

I should be doing my homework right now, but I couldn't help myself when this song came on, I felt like I must share this. Below are the lyrics to a song talking about life, and waiting for heaven. Every time I hear it, tears come to my eyes because the thought of a life without weeping, or suffering or pain doesn't seem possible. AND every time I get to hear this song it is a sweet reminder of what I get to live in by having the Lord in my life. It doesn't ignore the fact that there will indeed be these things in our life, throughout our life even, but it does speak of a hope that we can place in what the Lord offers and has waiting. I am convinced this will speak to you! Enjoy.


On the day when I see all that you have for me
When I see you face to face their surrounded by you're grace
All my fears swept away in the light of you're embrace
When you're love is all i need and forever i am free
Where the streets are made of gold in you're presence healed and whole
Let the songs of heaven rise to you alone......

No weeping,No hurt or pain,No suffering,You hold me now,You hold me now
No darkness,No sick or lame,No hiding,You hold me now,You hold me now

In this love I will stand through my joy and my pain
Knowing there's a greater day there's a hope that never fades
When you're name is lifted high and forever praises rise
For the glory of the king I'm believing for the take
Where the walls of violencies all creations rest in peace
Let the songs of heaven rise to you alone.....

No weeping,No hurt or pain,No suffering,You hold me now,You hold me now
No darkness,No sick or lame,No hiding,You hold me now,You hold me now

For eternity all my heart will give is the glory to you're name
For eternity all my heart will give is the glory to you're name
For eternity all my heart will give is the glory to you're name
For eternity all my heart will give is the glory to you're name

Thursday, February 11, 2010

The Familiar Thing...

Today I settled down into my comfortable spot at my usual coffee shop, often used for study purposes. Since I have been on a school break for seven weeks, this spot has grown a bit cold, I expected it to feel funny, odd and a bit out of place. Much to my surprise though it felt oddly right. Like my usual spot had been sad I hadn't been to visit in seven weeks, mean sure a coffee here and a tea there, but not to be settled for hours pouring over books gaining considerable amounts of information. Something in my heart felt settled. I was back. I was home. It started my thinking about the familiar things and why they bring us comfort. Is it because we have already worked through the awkward hard new beginning phase? or because this familiar thing feels as though we can control it, and when we can control things/circumstances we feel at ease? In part I feel that familiar things bring structure and stability. These things might vary from one person to the next but we all have our familiar things that we can count on being there for us.

But what I have gathered is that we mustn't only have familiar, or we never grow. But we also, mustn't only have newness or we are never grounded. It must be a balanced blend of both to help us continually move forward we welcome the new challenges of our ever changing world, and to stay who we are we can willingly engage in the familiar.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Can you feel it?

It's looking as if this blog is turning more into a monthly thing instead of a daily thing, or even a weekly thing. I must inform you it is not for lack of lessons, that is for sure. Just a lack of time, or motivation. With that said I will share my lessons from the past couple of days. Boy have they been some hard ones.

Firstly I have to start with something I feel we are all familiar with, FRIENDS. Either we have lots of them and are closer with some than other, but none the less have them, maybe we don't have any at all, or maybe we have the allusion of friends. Sometimes friendship comes in all different shapes and sizes, but I have to say I have learned that I have one very good friend whom I know would and will have my back through anything. I guess you can't fully know exactly what a friendship will look like until you have an experience    where the actions speak louder than the words. Truly I have seen actions speak louder than words in the last couple of days. With that said appreciate the friends you have who love and respect you, always looking for friends who will put into action what they speak.

Secondly, have you ever felt like your heart was breaking in two? Well I have. I wish I could say that I have learned a lesson from that, sadly I can't say I haven't yet. It still hurts a little bit to breath and because of that I think some how oxygen is not getting to my head, not allowing me to actually be able to put into perspective what is happening to me. When you honestly love someone so much, so deep, so much so that it is to the very core of you it is hard to think of living without them. The weird thing is, I have been living without for a very long time, not knowing what was laying at the bottom of your heart waiting to be awakened. I guess I have learned something, don't awaken it unless you are willing to live without because there is a reason it had been silent for so long.

I guess with those things I leave you. I don't really know who YOU is, considering that I am not sure anyone else reads this but me. As the page turns, I wait for the next life lesson.  

Monday, January 4, 2010

New Year Here I Come!

Okay so here it starts, 2010. January is always a time where we can have a nice fresh look at our lives, something about January makes me want to  change. Not change who I am, but change the things that are unhealthy in my life. But sometimes we can get so caught in the thoughts of new years resolutions that we forget to rejoice in how far we have come. So what I am learning you ask? Small steps, or as "What About Bob?" puts it baby steps. I have so much more living to do, I couldn't possibly change everything that needs changing in one years worth of resolutions.

Have you ever been afraid of having a repeat of that last year? I know I have. But that is a lie, you couldn't possibly have a repeat because you will meet new people, circumstances will change and time by its very definition is progressive. There is no possible way for anyone to have a repeat of a year. I guess to me that is settling to know, since I have had a run of a couple of difficult years now, and have been very fearful each time to start the new year. However when I look back, nothing is the same. Each year I have grown, those growing spots may be small patches of green grass in my life but they are there, and they are my green patches that are bringing newness in to my life daily. So this year I say step out of fear and into freedom and life.

PS. how can is really be the fourth of January already. if this is any indication of how 2010 is going I better put my glasses on so I can see clearly as it zooms past.