I've said it before and I'll say it again. Hello, my name is Ashley, and yes I am a pop music junkie - this is where you chime in a say hello back :)
Rule #23, be honest about your likes and dislikes.
I think in the past I haven't always been honest about the things I like or dislike because I was afraid of seeming lame, uneducated, unaware or even just plain boring. But as time quickly races past, as it always seems to do, I realize how important it is to be honest about the things that make you happy, or not so happy. Tonight as I put in my headphones, super excited to listen to the three new songs I recently downloaded while I did the dishes, it dawned on me how much I enjoy music. My plan, well it was to dance the night away while I did those dishes. And I did.
Since dishes are one of my favorite things to do, yes you may be wondering why ashley? why? It is simple, it is the BEST stress reliever ever, you are accomplishing something and at the VERY same time being so peaceful, not talking, and not being available to anyone. But more often than not, when I am doing my dishes is when I become the most aware of my thoughts, emotions, and actions. It is usually there at the sink that I evaluate my behavior and ruthlessly dissect it.
As I stood there grooving, and yes I just wrote grooving, I thought how great it was that I live alone so that I could do things like this. Wait. I am happy I live alone so that I can be myself??? Something is wrong with that thinking. Yes on one hand, living alone is nice because who knows, I might not get this precious me and the dishes time if I didn't live alone, but on the other hand it revealed something much deeper. The truth of the matter, it showed me that somewhere deep in my heart of hearts, I, am not completely okay with who I am. I need to render that.
So here is to rule #23, Pop music makes me happy. I love to dance around in my kitchen while doing my dishes, enjoying the latest pop song.
Oh and as a complete side note, I met a new friend, he's great, and incase he finds my blog, like he said he would :/ (yikes), I can't wait for our picnic. Thats also going to be great.
Friday, June 3, 2011
Saturday, April 30, 2011
#365...
Rule #365...don't wait that (365) many days to make a post on your blog.
That is why I am posting before it is midnight, because my last blog people...yes was May 1, 2010. The best part is I remember starting that post last year at around this time on April 30th.
The funny thing is, as I was sitting on my bed thinking how I need to change the excessively large white board calendar that hangs in my hallway to remind me of all the things that I don't want to do (usually my homework, Don't worry all those whose birthday was in the last month...I DID want to attend your party). What struck me was TIME. How much of our lives are run by time. Time to get up. Time to eat breakfast. Time to go to work or class. OH the worst...Time to pay your bills. time. time. time. It seems to my that time usually controls our lives. If we live by time, with everything scheduled we are OCD, and if we don't then we are freespirited. Why are we so concerned with time anyways? As I type, I am laughing because I can hear the clock clicking in the background. I am completely lost without a watch. I am obsessed with time. I often let time rule my life. Everything is scheduled, well everything WAS scheduled until I quit my job. If my life wasn't run like a military base, basically nothing was going to get done.
I thought I would experience this release from not having everything scheduled down to the minute. All I feel is lost. Nothing like a clue that I need to maybe, perhaps, loosen up. Realizing that I can't be in control of everything even if I have my life scheduled down till moment I die. HA. So simple. I know I will get there, because time is just time. Yes our world functions around it, but it doesn't have to rule me. There are no rules. I will finish college when I finish college. I will go to law school when I go to law school. I will get married when I get married, I will have children when I have children. And I will enjoy the time I have now, today. And tomorrow I will enjoy tomorrow for whatever tomorrow will bring.
Rule #2 Don't let time dictate your life!
One more life lesson learned,
Ashley
Matthew 6:34
That is why I am posting before it is midnight, because my last blog people...yes was May 1, 2010. The best part is I remember starting that post last year at around this time on April 30th.
The funny thing is, as I was sitting on my bed thinking how I need to change the excessively large white board calendar that hangs in my hallway to remind me of all the things that I don't want to do (usually my homework, Don't worry all those whose birthday was in the last month...I DID want to attend your party). What struck me was TIME. How much of our lives are run by time. Time to get up. Time to eat breakfast. Time to go to work or class. OH the worst...Time to pay your bills. time. time. time. It seems to my that time usually controls our lives. If we live by time, with everything scheduled we are OCD, and if we don't then we are freespirited. Why are we so concerned with time anyways? As I type, I am laughing because I can hear the clock clicking in the background. I am completely lost without a watch. I am obsessed with time. I often let time rule my life. Everything is scheduled, well everything WAS scheduled until I quit my job. If my life wasn't run like a military base, basically nothing was going to get done.
I thought I would experience this release from not having everything scheduled down to the minute. All I feel is lost. Nothing like a clue that I need to maybe, perhaps, loosen up. Realizing that I can't be in control of everything even if I have my life scheduled down till moment I die. HA. So simple. I know I will get there, because time is just time. Yes our world functions around it, but it doesn't have to rule me. There are no rules. I will finish college when I finish college. I will go to law school when I go to law school. I will get married when I get married, I will have children when I have children. And I will enjoy the time I have now, today. And tomorrow I will enjoy tomorrow for whatever tomorrow will bring.
Rule #2 Don't let time dictate your life!
One more life lesson learned,
Ashley
Matthew 6:34
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